I haven't been blogging much lately.
It's for a variety of reasons. I've just started tenth grade and, while I don't have a lot of homework, I tend to spend more time on it than I have previously. This year's classes feel more important to me due to the possibility of college credit. I've also been writing another novel, though I've barely even looked at it since August. I've been watching NCIS nonstop. I can't think of anything to write about. I've been reading blogs instead of writing them (though I've fallen behind on that too). There's probably a few others I can't think of right now. But I could get past all that.
No. There's really only one reason. And that's my blog itself.
To get what I've trying to say, you must first understand how my brain works. There's a place for everything and everything should be in its place. Everything must be in its place. Because if it's not, anxiety fills that space instead. That anxiety can reach such a degree that it's almost impossible to bear. So I fix the problem or, if the problem is too big for me to fix quickly, I avoid it. Like the plague.
Another thing you must understand, is that I have to be sure, absolutely certain, that "the thing" is in its place. I cannot assume. With some things, it is easy to check. For example, if my shoes are in the right place in my closet. Other things are harder, such as the labels on my blog. I have almost 300 posts over a nearly two year period. It would take forever for me to go back through all of them. However, this is part of the reason I'm avoiding my blog so it needs to be done.
Something else that greatly distresses me is when I cannot figure out where something goes, where it fits in with everything else or where there's space to put it by itself. This is currently the problem with my Projects page. I'm already making plans for what I want to do with my WIPs next year and I'm worrying over whether I should put those changes in place now since it's organized by current importance. And then there's those two award posts and that tag post I've been working on for months because I don't really like doing them, but feel obligated to.
But a week from today is my second blogiversary. I plan to get my shit together by then.
First, I'm going to tackle that Projects page. I want to update it. Who cares if it's a little ahead of time? It'll be like a teaser of what's to come. And who doesn't love a good teaser? Second, I'm going to finish those three damn posts already just so I can say I did it. Then I will never let an award or tag wait that long ever again. Third, I am going to sit down and make a list of acceptable labels that I will then apply. And while I'm doing all this I might just go ahead and create another page that will link to all of my writing samples that can be found on this blog. Work is good for the soul and my peace of mind.
So I'll see all of you again next week. Be sure to come back. I'm doing a giveaway for my blogiversary.