Tuesday, September 11, 2012

The Reason I Haven't Been Blogging Much Lately

I haven't been blogging much lately.

It's for a variety of reasons. I've just started tenth grade and, while I don't have a lot of homework, I tend to spend more time on it than I have previously. This year's classes feel more important to me due to the possibility of college credit. I've also been writing another novel, though I've barely even looked at it since August. I've been watching NCIS nonstop. I can't think of anything to write about. I've been reading blogs instead of writing them (though I've fallen behind on that too). There's probably a few others I can't think of right now. But I could get past all that.

No. There's really only one reason. And that's my blog itself.

To get what I've trying to say, you must first understand how my brain works. There's a place for everything and everything should be in its place. Everything must be in its place. Because if it's not, anxiety fills that space instead. That anxiety can reach such a degree that it's almost impossible to bear. So I fix the problem or, if the problem is too big for me to fix quickly, I avoid it. Like the plague.

Another thing you must understand, is that I have to be sure, absolutely certain, that "the thing" is in its place. I cannot assume. With some things, it is easy to check. For example, if my shoes are in the right place in my closet. Other things are harder, such as the labels on my blog. I have almost 300 posts over a nearly two year period. It would take forever for me to go back through all of them. However, this is part of the reason I'm avoiding my blog so it needs to be done.

Something else that greatly distresses me is when I cannot figure out where something goes, where it fits in with everything else or where there's space to put it by itself. This is currently the problem with my Projects page. I'm already making plans for what I want to do with my WIPs next year and I'm worrying over whether I should put those changes in place now since it's organized by current importance. And then there's those two award posts and that tag post I've been working on for months because I don't really like doing them, but feel obligated to.

But a week from today is my second blogiversary. I plan to get my shit together by then.

First, I'm going to tackle that Projects page. I want to update it. Who cares if it's a little ahead of time? It'll be like a teaser of what's to come. And who doesn't love a good teaser? Second, I'm going to finish those three damn posts already just so I can say I did it. Then I will never let an award or tag wait that long ever again. Third, I am going to sit down and make a list of acceptable labels that I will then apply. And while I'm doing all this I might just go ahead and create another page that will link to all of my writing samples that can be found on this blog. Work is good for the soul and my peace of mind.

So I'll see all of you again next week. Be sure to come back. I'm doing a giveaway for my blogiversary.


  1. You could always stop actually doing the awards - I know a lot of bloggers have done so. They will acknowledge the award but not respond to it. I'm tempted to do that too, but I still answer the awards every time. Even if sometimes my answer comes 6 months late. haha

    Labels...yeah, I need to sort mine out too. But mostly they're nice and sorted already. However, that labels cloud widget was really annoying a while back, and whenever I'd make changes & save them, the whole cloud would disappear. I think what I had to do was get all my selected labels right the first time, because editing an existing cloud would make the whole thing disappear. FRUSTRATING! I haven't tried editing it in a while, mostly 'cause I'm scared to ;)

    I already have a Goals draft page for next year, and I know things are going to work differently for me in 2013. 2012 was an interesting learning experience. But I'll finalise 2013's page closer to that year beginning.

    1. I know. I know. They're just chain letters and who really cares? Not like they actually pertain to writing at all. But I've already put so much effort and worry into them, I might as well finish them. After that, I may have to think long and hard about what I want to do with future awards.

      Luckily, my labels list doesn't tend to do this. I tweak my labels all the time and they never disappear, but I can definitely see how frustrating that would be. How did you fix it? And I'm totally scared too.

      Does a draft/list hybrid in my head count? :) I feel like this new year of blogging is close enough to fix it. Then I won't have to worry about it for a while. Really, I'm just changing the bottom half with the older/yet-to-be-planned projects. The top half will stay current.

    2. Re: The labels, it's only if I want to show just a few of them but not all of them, and only if I use the label cloud. At least, I haven't seen if it happens with the label list, as I haven't used that in quite a while. But i'm hoping the bug has been fixed since I last tried playing with my cloud.

    3. You can show just a few labels at a time? 0-0 Tell me more. I think my life may have just gotten easier.

  2. The awards are just chain letters, Brooke. It's okay to let them go. You and my brother have a lot in common. His house is meticulous, nothing is out of place, whereas mine is far from that.

    If organization is where you find your zen, then it sounds like to me you know exactly what to do to make yourself happy. But I might suggest that you relax just a little if you can. Let one or two things slide and watch to see if anything catastrophic happens. Like maybe try putting your shoes in a different place.

    Who knows? Maybe you'll discover that things don't have to be as perfect as you want them. Then maybe you'll have less stress and enjoy the wonders of just being young. You are only in 10th grade once. Make sure to lift your eyes, take a look around, and enjoy being in high school.

    Happy early blogoversary.

    1. I try not to stress. I try to tell myself it doesn't really matter. And I have been able to let a few small things go. Sticking with the shoes, I can leave those out on my bedroom floor all weekend now. Or I can leave a pile of hodge-podge papers on my desk for days until I have time to address them. But sometimes there'll be one big thing or a bunch of little things that will just throw me completely off track again. :/

      Less stress. Something I've been working toward for a long time. -sigh- And I try to do that. I'll go to my friends' houses even if I have things to do. I'll go to football games and join extra-curricular activities like musicals. And I enjoy all of that. It makes me happy. I try to remind myself of that when I'm sitting around afterward scrambling to catch up. I think it's worth it.

      Why thank you. ^^